Because I can.

When you look at something too closely, every other thing fades from your vision and it seems like there’s nothing else in front of you. I do that a lot with all the bad that happens and then there’s no space for the good that is.

But I can.
I can take a step back.
I can take a step back and breathe and open my eyes.

And then I see that it takes away nothing from me that makes me who I am. It does nothing to me. So I let it go. Just because I can.

Red Shoes

The problem is, sometimes when I’m trying to work out the kind of person I think I want to be, I end up going in different directions. It isn’t always the way I want to be heading but because I’m not quite there yet, I still find myself turning the wrong corners, walking into a dead end.

Excuse me but can you tell me where to find the yellow brick road?

Look out for the hole in the sky.

One day, when you look up and see an opening right before you, you know that there is nothing to do but to take a step and walk through. I am waiting for that opening, the gap in the doorway, the slight lift of the curtain. And then I will know that it is time.

I’ll see the black car calvacade
Lights on in the morn
I’ll run fast and far away
I’ll run without stopping
Till heart and feet fail
Or until I can stand

And be and be not afraid
Be and be not afraid
Be and be not afraid
To reach for heaven

(Be and Be Not Afraid - Tracy Chapman)